And I know thinking “I’m actually happy.” Is a new feeling for you.
But if it’s truth, keep it up!
You’ve gotten this far, changed your life, started acting on your dreams. Fulfill them completely. You deserve that much. <3
And I know society deems it “odd” to not follow the trends, the ideals, the thought processes.
If you don’t have friends to tell you themselves, let me repeat the words of one of my friends for you.
“These things define your personality. Not your worth.”
And I know you can see these lights from your darkest place.
Stand to your feet, even if you’re broken.
Break every mold you’re shoved into.
And I know you heart is still weary to a point that no amount of hugs, caffeine, or avoidance can help you ignore it.
Just cry for once. Not forever, maybe not even for more than a minute or two.
Let your heart pour out with your tears. And then wipe your eyes, look to Christ, and keep your head up. Everyone has a breaking point. You’re human too, ok?
And I know you’ve crawled through the dust and dirt, clawing your way forward yet never truly finding stability or change.
He will one day wash the mud from your face and call you His own.
He’ll clothe you in white, and remind you why you kept going even when it meant losing everything. Taste the dust at the foot of His cross until you remember anew what love is in the first place.
And I know you’ve run far and long from where you’re meant to be.
And still there is that voice, sometimes whispering, sometimes screaming so loud you can’t possibly ignore it.
Longing, begging, pulling you back home. Just to show you how loved you are. Just to show you how much you are needed here. Drop the act. Come home.
And I know time passes quickly and sometimes before you’re entirely ready for it.
You should know that you’ve lived your life beautifully.
And if you’re afraid of what’s to come, take a deep breath. It’s going to be an adventure like you’ve never experienced before. <3
